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Name: Holly and Jess
Metro: Sydney
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Interests: Travel, music, the beach


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Member Since: 8/11/2005

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Friday, April 20, 2007

Currently Listening
The Bends
By Radiohead
all tracks!!!
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where is the love?? or did i write that last time?

Jess

oh woe. woe is me.

where is the love I love to see......

where is it hiding - why does it keep dividing - why isn't it riding - and why can't i be confiding

did i lose it long ago? where did it start? did it even begin? or did i cut it off?

I think I've known from the start that his heart was never really in it. If it was in it I would have known about it and I wouldn't have been worried about falling for him from the start.

but the truth is I fell for him long ago....it has never gone away- it has just lain dormant for 7 years.

 


Monday, January 15, 2007

Currently Reading
The Zahir: A Novel of Obsession
By Paulo Coelho
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Jess

I need to express myself. There is someone who is occupying my thoughts.... kind of like a 'Zahir' , an obsession, something that gradually takes over ALL of your thinking space (see 'The Zahir' by Paulo Coelho.) Anyway, so here goes.......

i don't know what to do now. we have just talked and talked it through but still i am left with the same questions.

i guess it's just waiting now. but i am seriously scared cuz i feel like the actual act of me waiting is once again just allowing myself to live my life according to the desires of someone else.

but it's not...because my desires are taking me to you. i guess thats whats complicated about loving someone- its hard to live purely on your own desires because in order to be able to act out love (in other words....to be able to express your love to this person and feel it through and through) you still really really REALLY want the other person's desire to be to love you back.

why can't we just love and be happy with that? why do we have to be loved back? should love be unconditional? if it is i certainly haven't noticed.

i don't want us to put a label on it but i am sick of not knowing what we are. i want you straight away and all the time but i love to love you for your passions and for being yourself- the 'you' that you are when I am not always around you. i like to play coy games with you, but only when i know that i am in control and i get to win you in the end anyway.

you love to have me as a friend and you like all the 'extra' things that make the two of us unique....but is falling in love an 'extra' thing or is it just 'the' thing? are you being honest with the way you feel about me? i guess it doesn't matter if you are- if you are not honest with yourself then how can i expect you to be honest with me? i cannot believe in something that isn't there- even if i can speculate that it would be there if you were being honest-it's just hypothetical.

what is, is. what isn't, isn't. aaaggh!!! its not that simple....is it???

OH DEAR!!!!!!!!!

love love love love love xxxxx


Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Yay

Holly

Jess is coming home on Saturday for the summer!!!!!!!!!!!

Am so excited!


Tuesday, October 24, 2006

there once was a lazy girl,

who went all around the world.

she worked in a bar,

did not have a car,

she wasn't a lazy girl!

 

jess (in case you didn't realise)

yes, that's right- i'm in the country of limericks-and in case you once again didn't realise, that's IRELAND.

Holly got back in July?! and i still haven't written in here?

yes, we did have a huge amount of talking to do, and i'm pretty sure my throat was sore too...! we had a blast- and i'm actually still waiting on those photos Holly took when we went out- as she wouldn't let me see them when she took them...and as you may or may not realise- with the advancements of digital technology it is just compulsive to reach for the viewing screen on the back of your camera when you are out dancing, and blessed with sparkling wine confidence- to look at all the puckered photos you only just took. so, you understand- i am DYING to know how they all turned out!

judging from the new 'profile' photo of ours on the front page of this blog- they turned out hilarious!

so- no longer am i a lazy girl. day in, day out, i am not working in edinburgh anymore! yesssss! i am enjoying Ireland and learning about this country's vast and bloody history, and then next week Chris and I will be relaxing in our flat for a week before finally saying goodbye to the city of our first meeting. then it's on to Croatia for 10 days, which i can't wait for!

THEN.....it's onto the French Alps for 5 months of chalet bliss. so, life is not boring anymore- it could actually be worth writing about on the pages of Xanga...but we'll see!

but for now, i'll leave you with another limerick......

there once was a boy named chris,

who never let things go amiss.

he worked with the pipes,

ate fruit that was ripe,

and lived in a state of bliss!

 

 

 


Friday, August 11, 2006

back again

Back at uni, what can I say, it sucks. I did however, have a fantastic winter break. I went to Edinburgh and visited Jess as you can see from this picture! We had so much to talk about, by the end of the first evening I had a sore throat from talking so much!!!

 

 

I'm being lazy, just like Jess, haven't written here for ages.

I'm good, if you wanted to know



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